June 2021
Here you are: here, at the end of something. You’re here standing at a gulf, looking at a great unknown and straining to see the horizon on the other side. Here at this end, on the edge of this cusp, things feel upside down: old flames drip off into tears and the air is thick with a bittersweetness. What once fed you now leaves you hungry. Things that once lit you up don’t quite shine the same for you anymore. Here you are haunting a present that yearns to be your past, still walking familiar halls not quite ready to move on or let go.
June is the time to take some sweet slowness. This is the time to sit with the sensations of what it is to not quite know yet, the feeling of being not quite ready to get going. Call a friend who can hear you, who can just listen even when you don’t have exact words to say. Journal out all your circling thoughts; sit in silence to take it all in. Snuggle in bed, stretch out in a park. Wherever and however you are, move in your body with tenderness and offer grace to all your aching. The important thing here is to reconnect with yourself and the things that lend you support and offer you spaciousness.
You are moving through a transition, don’t rush it. You are in process and this processing is exactly where you’re meant to be. You’ve had a glimpse into new projects and passions, a glimpse at a new way of life, but for now take the time to cradle into all that you’re ready to say goodbye to. Steal some sweet moments with these things, take a good look, shed some tears. This gentleness will help lift you on your way to that new horizon, but for now, just simply be here, be present. Be available to what is right here right now.
Be sensitive to the feeling of slipping away.
“Apparition: A Spirit Speak Tarot Deck” by Mary Elizabeth Evans